I am not a perfect person but I will try to compromise each others’ weaknesses. I do give people some benefit of doubt. I give ‘many’ chances. Nevertheless, there’s a limit to this. I prefer being upfront rather than doing hanky-panky stuff behind my back.
I know: there are people who make up stories /telling white lies in order to get my attention, there are people who give excuses because they don’t know how to be truthful (probably fear hurting my feelings), there are people who hide the truth of themselves in order to look perfect to me, and etc. Sadly, this won’t make our relation/friendship go further – instead it would probably drift away.
Be sincere in my ‘friendship’ with YOU; and that’s the only thing I ask for. I may sound like a joker at times but in every way I am very serious in friendship!
2018 is not a year of friendship to me; in fact, some have been delisted. Don’t be the next! (This is not a warning laaaa)
I could have gave up on trying different types of ogura cake when the subsequent butterfly flower pea ogura cake cracked after the first perfect honey ogura cake. Fortunately I didn’t! And after the shrinking banana ogura cake, now we have a rather perfect pandan coconut ogura cake! 😆 It didn’t shrink and taste well; again a little wet but I personally love the soft texture!
Even if my kids are not bored with just one flavour of ogura cake, I think sooner or later I would be bored with baking just the honey ogura cake! I won’t want to be ‘stuck’ with just one ogura cake – and named myself a ‘good’ baker! In fact, I don’t want to just bake only bread or only ogura cake! I have many more aims- I actually wanna try Swiss roll for some time and lately itch to make layer cake (after getting tips from papa Zac)!
This is just like life – we seek for continuous improvement! I may just be a homemaker (for now) – there are many (different) things that I try to do on a daily basis – so that my ‘otak tak karat’! 🤭 Plus keeping myself busy can make me stay away from negativities!
Credit recipe to Vanessa Lau
Credit KNS for the tips on getting thicker pandan extract
Credit my hubby for his popia (today) that uplifted my mood😜 (story he and I only understand 😂)- hence the success!🤣
Credit my three kids for not disturbing me at all in the kitchen when I was baking today
I question myself – my hubby is stressed up, working day and night thinking about the million ringgit budget for the company and do I have to be so stressed up because of a ‘punctuation mark’!
In short: i used to work in a writing industry where there are house rules on writing. I didnt know that casual text msg has house rules too😅😅 that a simple (or to be specific, 3) exclamation marks actually offended someone. 🙊🙈then came all the “accusations”!
Like it or not, I did replied after all:
<Sorry, I didn’t know the use of exclamation marks can be so sensitive. I would look into it next time. I don’t have time to talk about what’s going on in your mind as I don’t even have time for myself. So sorry if I hurt you.>
While i tell myself ignore or dont bother, i am purely disturbed. I am losing sleep. And try to divert myself as much as possible….i think like i mention before it takes time for the feeling to taper off….haiz…today is just second day. It will get better soon…
Get back to focus my dear self >> your three cutie pies!
Some of us hide our pain so that we don’t hurt anyone but end up hurting ourselves. Some talk to trustable peers. Some just emo by spreading unnecessary ‘gossips’! Which group are you?
But a reminder – First day of ‘pain’ is always the hardest. Next few days still ‘painful’! Next one or two weeks still slightly ‘painful’! But eventually the ‘pain’ will just taper off! While it may leave a scar, the ‘pain’ will not be perpetual!
Be grateful for what we have !
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I had one of the best two months in May and June 2018 – because we had many off days (election fever, HK trip and then Noelle’s Raya and semester break)! But I had to admit they were also one of my most down time – which I basically ignored almost everyone – even with the closest friends! I just wanted to stay focus with the kids (and hubby) to reduce my ‘pain’! I was also finding ‘faults’ with everyone! I shouldn’t blame the ‘pain’ solely but also take responsibility for the down moments – if I could have spoken out to someone about the issue! I wanted to see what I observed was true enough to my analysis and take charge of my own emotions.
But after my ‘confession’ yesterday – it is truly done! I feel much relief today and at peace! I don’t know how long this will last – as this tends to repeat ‘few times’ in a year despite the fact that I always move on. (I am not sure how this cord can be cut completely, seriously.)
Not everyone (even closely related ones) comes with a sincere heart. They might do things to infuriate you. It is best to ignore these people because they could be doing this to catch your attention or worse, to provoke your reaction.
Maturity is when you keep your mouth shut even though you want to say something mean to someone. It isn’t a product of growing older, it’s a product of growing wiser! You are always responsible for how you act, no matter how you feel.
Most of the time, I know some people (too free) just want to provoke ill feelings. Let them be. Old dogs don’t learn new tricks. Sarcastically saying, let them bring their ‘self righteous’ or ‘fake joy’ to their death bed!
**too free – forwarding nonsense messages with WhatsApps (treating like email forwarding); pretentious to ask for recipe – kononnya ‘ownself like’ but for the ‘special’ loved one (not being truthful); want to show off how ‘lovely and caring’ they are on social media (people who don’t even bother about doing things with their kids in the past but rather spend time with their siblings – now so into their grandkids? Regret?)- fake; not knowing the actual reason people not responding to their messages and end up calling people ‘selfish’ (not everyone so FREE like the ‘unselfish’ ones, ok?); day and night sitting looking at the facebook – giving ‘likes’ on every status and photos without knowing the reason of the posts
– sorry I am not a perfect person; I have my past and pain too –
Be your own person with your own style and do your own thing.
– I seriously don’t bother if I inspired (I am not waiting for a Nobel Prize) or annoyed people (reminder: there’s always an unfriend or block button), I just do what I ought to do!
Life goes on….