Reminiscing younger days with firstborn

I am glad that we did many, many things in kitchen when she was younger. As she grows up, I notice that she has less interest in ‘cooking’ but more to helping. I will definitely not force her to cook if she doesn’t like it but I still wish that she can do something in kitchen – which is vital as she grows. In fact, she has developed some fear in ‘fire’! Nevertheless, I am still grateful that she helps when I asked to! Sometimes like today, she still volunteers herself. <video>


As time ticks, my heart is ‘heavy’ actually – as she will be stepping into her next phase of life! But I think ‘homeschooling’ doesn’t stop there! There is so much more to learn in LIFE, which I wish to pass on to her!

Putting a brave frontΒ 

Weather hot, I feel like I am about to be ‘down’ because of the weather, kefir grains is getting weak, kids want to drink coconut water – ok, ‘let’s go get coconut water’! They are excited too as they get to ‘go out’. (cranky Nikki makes me want to go out too)


So off we went to the coconut stall that we usually go to. Disappointedly it did not open. Remembering one of my mummy friends saying that there is one along the road to Evolve Mall, I tried luck and there it is – a coconut hut (stopping there is definitely not easy but they have a reserve spot for a customer at a time).


I usually don’t get down from the car with the usual stall. But since this is the first time, I went down and walked towards the stall – to be greeted by two ferocious dogs! 😱😱 The stall owner immediately shooed them off!
My immediate response was to walk/run away. Then I realized one was tied and another was ‘free’! 😨😨😨When I was near to my car, the dog and I were basically face-to-face! I was ‘oh shit!’ My leg immediately kicked slightly up (reflexπŸ˜‚)! I guess the dog saw my leg moved up and made a u-turn! πŸ™„πŸ™„πŸ™„Phew….that was really close! I then quickly went into the car and acted nothing happened (well, they – Noelle and Nikki – actually watched the whole scene from the car)! I winded down the window to order the coconut I want. 
Right after the man left to prepare my orders, I was still calming myself. Putting a heroic front, I opened a conversation with Noelle πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ asking her what did she see. She saw nothing embarrassing of mama! 😝 (If those days I would probably scream or cry!)
Sometimes I do feel my life is more drama than TVB drama! πŸ™„πŸ™„

Nikki’s gets her ‘lifetime’ immunity against chicken pox…….by contracting itΒ 


Nikki started warmish since last night and I actually spotted some ‘rashes’ on her body this morning. I took a pic of the ‘rash’ and send to our paed, telling him that we couldn’t pop up at his clinic at that time as we don’t have transport. 

Moments later, he replied: ‘From the pic it looks like chicken pox vesicle but need to see closer to confirm. Please drop by when u r free today.’
Seriously, speechless and my brain couldn’t function. One thing that struck me for sure – ‘one get, all will get!’ πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ ‘How lucky are we?’ Fortunately, both me and hubby had chicken pox during primary school years. 


So hubby rushed back from work and we went to paed. He confirmed that it IS chicken pox! 😩😩😩 And he described it like so horror-fully! Plus advised to separate Norrah (but how?) as baby getting chicken pox will be far worse! πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ 
[Then we remember Norrah will be getting her jab on Monday but dr advised us to defer it for a week with Klinik Kesihatan! πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ Another thing to settle!]
Nikki is given anti viral medicine that need to be fed every 3 hours 5 times a day for 5 days. This is her first medication in 21m11d and fortunately she did not really cry or reject when I fed her through syringe. Dr advised to put bedak sejuk instead of calamine lotion as the lotion contains a lot of chemicals – and so we did as recommended (we bought from the Chinese medical hall). There are already few rashes that were scratched – so we can expect some scars. Hopefully it will not be so terrible. I continue to nurse her like usual (the issue of separating them is still on going in mind – see how it goes tonight)! 
The question of how she contracted – will always remain a mystery but we think it could be either at Sunmed when she was there during my Gynae visit or at music school. Wherever it is – the situation cannot be reversed. We just have to move forward and brace what would happen the next few days – plus foresee the other two may contract it (I have no confidence that both won’t contract it, honestly speaking). 
Just could hope that the ‘pain’ she/they go through will be mild. 😩😩😩
** we didn’t put them on chicken pox vaccine. During Noelle’s time, no stock. During Nikki’s time, got stock but decided not to – what happened has happened- no blame game ! Plus the vaccine doesn’t guarantee 100% protection against chicken pox.

It can be lonely and miserableΒ 

Despite things have been settling quite well, I am at a juncture where life could be ‘lonely and miserable’ – as I slowly losing ‘contact’ with other people -largely because I am so handful lately (even during the nursing hours) – no hands to look for the phone and/or no fingers to type (probably only a thumb to ‘like’ some posts). 
Me time (or teatime/ breakfast when the kids are still asleep) has been brief – running in and out handling one after another (toddler and newborn). 
Many things running in the mind but I couldn’t ‘type’ them; couldn’t be bothered with it until I forget what’s in my mind – becoming more forgetful too!
I know (and hope🀞🏻) this is just a ‘phase’. And it will soon pass!

Multi tasking to another level


Today I had a rather rough patch day just after lunch! And I remembered my first rough patch day during Nikki’s was when both cried for mama. Today three ‘cried’ for mama (though Noelle’s cry was not ‘cry’ per say)! 
Right after eating their lunch (no issue with lunch), Noelle wanted to poo and so she went to the toilet. I just continued eating my lunch until Nikki cried that she wanted to poo today! Nikki has this most troublesome moments each time she poos- but I decided to leave her on the potty by herself while I continue to walloped up my lunch (thinking of wiping their butts later actually made me lose appetite especially when I had meatball spaghetti)! 
So as I was eating, Nikki was wailing as usual as she tried to poo – usually she has me by herself to comfort her! Then it followed by Norrah crying! πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ And Noelle screaming ‘I am done mama!’πŸ™„πŸ™„
Three cries at one go! To be ‘fair’ and compose myself first, I let them ‘cry’ themselves when I at least clean the dining table – especially the mess left by Nikki! I just left the dishes in the sink before I get to them!
So, I picked Norrah up and went to Nikki to find if she has pooed- which was still on the way! Put down Norrah on the bed before washing Noelle’s butt up! Asked Noelle to dress herself up, picked crying Norrah up and asked Nikki to continue to pop. Changed Norrah who has just pooped too! πŸ™„πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ Then asked Nikki if she’s done, but not yet! So I nursed Norrah while watching Nikki (Noelle was done dressing and was comforting Nikki by giving her the bear bear). Once Nikki’s done, I put down Norrah – and let her cry (no choice) and washed Nikki plus dress her up! (Told Nikki to go play with Jeh Jeh)! Continue to let crying Norrah latch, who then finally slept! So, finally put her down to cot to nap before finishing off the dishes!
As I wrote this, I think I brought my multi task level to ‘another’ level! 🀣 Whatever…
Anyway I didn’t have a ‘good’ day – annoyed by many things and so as usual nap when the kids nap! Woke up by a door bell, with a blur face, picked up a bunch of flower and that changed my mood! 😝 I don’t usually like people ringing bells (especially uninformed/uninvited) during naptime but today is exceptional)! 


Thank you for making my day! 😘😘😘 Hope it will be a better second half when the kids are awake from nap! (P/s: as I am writing this, I am also multi tasking – latching Nikki and then Norrah πŸ™„) 
Anyway, this isn’t from my hubby lor….πŸ™„πŸ™„πŸ™„ (no prize for guessing who 😝)
Motherhood brings friend(s) who cherish ‘us’ more (than our hubbies? πŸ™„πŸ˜) because often we are in the same boat! 
It is the little things that count!

N2 wouldn’t be a neglected middle child!


Today I am going to ‘talk’ about Nikki. 7 days passed and I do think THE person that has the most difficult change is NIKKI. 


Though she may seem to be like normal at most times, she has some of her ‘worst’ tantrums and became extremely ‘manja’ during these days! For example, hubby and I couldn’t calm her down to put her on swim wear yesterday; and we were on the verge of giving up πŸ˜ͺbut good thing was only Noelle managed to calm her! She has also become more demanding of us – clinging to us especially strangers are around! πŸ™„And ever since she started her first dose of latching, she has become more attached to mama! πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ From sleeping through the night, she occasionally wakes up to look for mama! 
I guess this is a ‘phase’ πŸ™„ – but it does take a lot of our patience to help her through this phase. 


The most ‘painful’ cry I heard was yesterday – when she was crying for mama pitifully while I needed to carry the crying Norrah; and what I could do was to hug her and rub her back to assure her that mama was still there for her! Allowing her to nurse again and getting on bed with mama are also forms of assurance that everything is status quo for her! I am also grateful that I regained part of my energy two days back – where I unknowingly able to carry Nikki again (I know my limits, though). 
Nikki baby, you definitely won’t be a ‘neglected’ middle child; we will assure this! 😘


Meals today! 


My breakfast : Tuna sandwich + fruits + red dates water
(Today I am so tempted to drink coffee when I smell the coffee aroma πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ ok, I drank few sips from hubby’s cup at the end! πŸ˜‚ I know it is possible to drink but I am refraining from it because once started difficult to stop – but I think I will start drinking next month πŸ€” πŸ˜‚)
My lunch and our dinner:


Steamed minced pork


Stir fry fish meat, tofu and veggies


Air fried chicken drummets (for kids)

Have faith in what you taught your kids


On the ‘waiting’ day, Noelle and poh poh were playing playdoh. Poh poh suggested that they make ‘donuts’ as pretend play. Noelle: ‘This is bad for health!’*
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And during the wait, poh poh brought Noelle to 7-Eleven. Poh poh offered to buy Noelle stuff including ice cream. She rejected all of them and told poh poh she needs to ask mama’s permission first. True enough, yesterday after asking mama’s permission, she went down to 7-eleven again with poh poh to get her rainbow 🌈 paddle pop!*
😊😊😊😊😊😊
^^this is also a measure that she doesn’t accept anything from ‘strangers’ – I was telling her how the ice cream van suck up the minions when the minions greedily took the free ice creams 🀣 (in the cartoon)
Also when she eats something like her paddle pop ice cream which Nikki is not allowed, she keeps reminding poh poh that Mei Mei cannot eat it! 
😁😁😁😁😁😁😁very proud of this big Jeh Jeh who can look after Mei Mei! 
After getting her Fluttershy pony, she told hubby ‘enough of ponies already, no need buy ponies already!’ – because Fluttershy is the ultimate pony that she has been wanting. She is definitely not a greedy kid!😊😊
And mama definitely cannot forget her excitement shown when she opened and found that the exchange gift was Fluttershy! No regrets for getting her that! 
* partly told by my mum to me